No Love, No More

What saddens me the most, ever, is to see you go the wrong path. Not saying you are now, or ever will, I just hope not. There is still time left. It can take a person one day to become bad, but it can take a year to become good again.

I want to know what's going on in your mind. What are you thinking each and everyday, who you are talking to, what they say to you, why do you think this way. I know I have no control over what you do on the internet and chatting with friends, but will it kill you to at least let us know what IS going on, or let us believe that you are not doing things that will concern us.

Honestly, every time we get into a fight, my anger becomes tears. Yes, tears. You're not the only that cries in this family. You're not the only one who thinks no one can ever disrespect you because "that's just the way you are." Freaking breaks my heart to hear what you just said to me a few minutes ago. Where did you learn all of this from? If you're angry at us, I know you are. Maybe it was our fault last week. What did I tell you, forgive and forget. There's no reason why you cannot follow by that when we were both raised to become that type of people.

I've already made mistakes and I'd kill myself to see you make any like me or just anything else. Words can't even describe how I feel right now. It's just too much to handle and I don't think it would ever be the same until this phase is through...

5 - 1 = 0

Q. If DBSK breaks up, what will you want to do?
YH: If that does happen, I will gather my members again. As the leader.

Dong Bang Shin Ki is THE reason I listen to Kpop. You guys might think this is not a big deal or I'm just being too dramatic, but these guys seriously mean something to me. After I read this, I almost cried. This whole lawsuit thing is killing me. But I believe the hearing will go well tomorrow, and the guys will win and get back what they deserve and continue to be in SME. No matter what happens, I am a true and forever Cassiopeian. Like Yoochun says:

Always keep the faith.
Dong Bang Shin Ki, saranghae youngwonhee.

finally an update!

seriously, so many things are going on right now; i'm about to explode! as i am writing this, something just happened between my family members; i feel so...trapped and i just don't want to see it nor hear it. it just makes me feel so..crappy. this is one reason why i don't want to come home at times. it gets so frustrating!!

world off. music on.

first post since.. forever :)

wow, i really didn't update for so long. now let's see...what's new..?

so i started working two weeks ago. i honestly don't think it's an exciting job, but i did make great friends with my co-workers or as i like to call them, my COLLEAGUES hahahah! so i basically have the reception desk i guess? but i still work under my supervisor, not like greeting the people and guide them to wherever. at least not for now i guess. madd depressing, quiet, and seriously boring there. i tried to decorate as much as possible. so i brought my stress relief squeezing thing, BoA & DBSK pics, and brought random things and store them in my cabinets for my entertainment and when i wanna slack off, i can mess around LOL. but i still have the iTouch so i youtube a lot for music LOL.

well, for some fun stuff; we had a goodbye get together for our bestie Trung last last saturday before he left. it was fun; we played the Wii and some other games as well. i introduced a game and it was hilarious to see people trying to seduce others to make them laugh...although you didn't really have to but that was hilarious ROFL. the monday after that, Ve, Trung, Sarah, and i went to JFK beach and chilled with Trung for the last time. it was a very fun beach day; talked, ate s'mores, volleyballed, and taking random pics and vids. we're so awesome. sadly, it was time to go home and we all wished Trung a safe and fun trip! i read his blog and i'm glad he landed safely :D

speaking of Trung, IF YOU'RE READING THIS, I JUST WATCHED 2PM'S WILD BUNNY EPISODE 1 AND IT'S JUST AWESOMELY HILARIOUS! COME BACK SOON AND WATCH IT :D! I'D TELL YOU HOW IT IS HERE BUT...I DON'T WANNA SPOIL IT LOL!  IT'LL MAKE YOU LOVE THEM EVEN MORE ^____^!

so that was last last week. last week, another boring week at work, then finally on Friday and yesterday, it was finally some chill time :D went to Porter and Newbury with the guys actually on friday. like we ate at Porter but went to Samurai to eat sushi -__- LOLOL? and YESTERDAY was one of the best. it was a girls' pool day at this public pool at Alewife (far but pretty cool)! it was Ve, Sarah, Nhi, Cindy, and i at first. Co and Phuong came later on. it was fun swimming for the first time since forever! it was only Ve and i though, the other girls didn't know how to swim :( ugh so Ve and i went to the deep end and the lifeguard all told us to do a deep end test; we did it and she all ignored us and just left is hanging. oh wth -.- but its whatever, we still got to chill on the side and get a TAN! puahha! well at the end, the girls went to eat and sadly i couldn't go cause i had to meet with Aoki- san and Sayaka- san at Allston. 

Aoki- san, Sayaka- san, and i met up at the super 88 food court at Allston to eat before we go to Do Re Mi for our karaoke night :) it was nice meeting an international student! Sayaka- san was super nice and i think she's cute :) you knowww, like those Japanese nice/cute/etc people :D very polite. the best part is, THE THREE OF US LOVE DBSK & BIG BANG & SUPER JUNIOR! seriously, it was so much fun just hanging out with them and just get excited easily and spazz about the boys. hey, it was my first time hanging out with Korean (girl) fanatics so i was super excited! we arrived at Do Re Mi and the people who worked there showed us our room. after she left, the three of us just jumped up and down screaming "AHHH!" cause the room was so awesome pretty with the lights and we FINALLY got to sing DBSK and more!

TO dropped by once or twice and left and came back LOL. ahh i think they scared the girls but whatever LOL! when they were gone, we had the best time singing Sorry Sorry, Gee, weeeeek, Mirotic, Hug, and all the other DBSK songs! Sayaka and Aoki sang most of the Japanese songs because they know much more jpop than i did. our last song was "Doushite..." by DBSK. great song to end our night cause the three of us knew every word to the song LOL.

after that, i went with TO to Lawrence's house and we played MJ. OMG SERIOUSLY, I DON'T FEEL LIKE PLAYING ANYMORE CAUSE OF THAT STUPID MISTAKE LOL. ugh mad awkward hahahaha!! never playing with the guys again LOL.

i think i had a great weekend i guess. well friday and saturday haha. today, i just went to Forever21 with Candy jehjeh to return some things and i bought two outfits for work. hope the weather gets better and better so i can actually wear it LOL. unless it's not appropriate for work? but i don't think it's that bad lol. oh well, now i shall make a to-do list before i get pissed off and stuff LOL. bye!

"Because the sun is above us right now shining endlessly"

Currently playing: Sky by DBSK

WHAT A GREAT DAY! Seriously! It didn't rain...no work...didn't have to watch Victoria...and other stuff. Okay let me express myself step by step :)

Well, there was a college fair at Harvard for SSP students today so July, Nancy, and I met up at Harvard and checked it out. Ehh nothing much. All these schools that are either far away, never heard of, and I just don't want to look at LOL. After going to Harvard, I WENT TO THE RMV!! Yes, finally; after months and weeks of saying I'll take the permit test, I finally did it today. If I didn't, I wouldn't have the time to do it during the weekdays because I'll have work and extra stuff to do. Anyways...AND I PASSED! YEAHHHHHH!!

OMG so I was taking the test in the room with the monitors and stuff. I selected to do a practice test because I was nervous and want to see how it'll be like BUT; that practice test asked me "WHAT SHAPE IS A BALL?" and "WHAT STATE ARE YOU IN?" Like yeah, THAT helped a lot LOL! So I finally went with the exam and the bottom of the screen tells me how many I got correct. LOL I finished like 10 minutes before the 25 minutes that they give me and I got 19 or 20 correct out of 25 questions. And the number of ones I need to pass is 18 HAHH!! Just enough so I'm happy. I was literally smiling REALLY REALLY cheesily when I went to the desk and got my permit LOL. And smiling when I was walking out of the RMV. The first person I called to tell the great news was my mommy; second was my daddy and...after that, I started texting whoever knew that I was going to take the test today LOL. Ahhh so happy :)

I went home afterwards and stayed until Ve and the guys are heading out for the beach. Ve, Dustin, Lawrence, Tony, Simon, Phuong, and Lena were there! And I seriously want to be darker. Not like DARK DARK but just not...right now LOL. Ehhh kinda failed today due to me running around so much and the sun's not hot enough :) Played some volleyball at the net with some...really random and apparently perverted guys on the other team. Whatever, they need a life.. LOL! We took a break and the girls and I were just taking random pictures with Phuong's camera. Dustin, our photographer...okay like OMG LOL. It was funny but yeah LOL. Long stories haha :D

Anddd the day ended when we all left around 8ish. Freaking freezing when the sun setted and Ve and I were just watching our guys play with some Viet adults-ish on the other team. Darn yall LOL :]

But today was definitely fun! Haven't hang out with everyone like this for so long. Great way to end a Friday! Sadly, I'm gonna start working next week so ehh..hanging out might be difficult-ish. We all still love each otherrrr ;) Now...tomorrow's plans: Japanese study session with my lovely tomodachi Aoki- san and we're gonna spazz about DBSK all day long! After that is probably more chill time? :)

"way back into love"

Wowowow, I didn't update since forever! I actually started a few entries a few days ago but never really published it hehehe :P

So much has been going on lately. I don't even know if I have extra time for whatever things I want to do anymore. Last weekend, my mom, Victoria, cousins; Candy, Susan, and Ling, and I had an All Girls' Shopping weekend at New York and at Foxwoods. The outlet that we went to, it's my first time back since 2007. I got a few things from there. Heels, flats, converse, COACH WRISTLET, professional clothes, and athletic wear. Ehhh I do feel bad for buying so much but...IT'S LIKE AN OFFICIAL SHOPPING SPREE :) Foxwoods wasn't much; ate and went to the Arcade with Victoria. Thennnn we went to Mohegan Sun for nothing much really. And finally headed home and arrived around 7 PM on Saturday.

For July 4th, I went to Charles River with Eva, Steven, Jack, Warren, Daniel, and a bunch of other people. But at the end, we were all separated and it ended up being me, Steven, Eva, and Daniel. OMFG IT WAS SOOO CROWDED AND I WAS SOOOO SQUISHED! Nonetheless, we had the BEST view! It was literally in our face and just above us. Beautiful :)

Hmm so I've started work this week. It's basically just orientation this week and some workshops. I still get paid though! And I was told that I need to dress up everyday for work, too! DARN ME!! Heels and flats here I come....:( and tomorrow, work at 8:45 AM until 12! At least I have the afternoon off and have sometime to study for Japanese lol. Sadly, my midterm is coming up and I'm going to have an oral and written exam. I shall do my best! Gambatte!

I got my BWH ID picture taken today and I KNOW it's terrible. Why do these ID badges always come out SO UGLY?! Like even in general; it's so uncool! Okay less venting and updating, NEED TO START JAPANESE HOMEWORK NOW!

Tell Me Your Wish

School is FINALLY over. Well, yeah I haven't been updating a lot lately. Just wanted to get many things out of the way and have some time to myself. Since it's Sunday, I'll talk about last week :)

I attended my first Japanese class at Harvard last Tuesday. It starts at 6:30 PM and ends at 9:30 PM so that means I go home very late on Tuesdays and Thursdays :( Well BWH didn't start yet so that means when it DOES start, my Tuesdays and Thursdays will be super busy -_- Anywho, so my Japanese class has like...college people, international students, adults/teachers at Harvard, and just high school students. I think I'm one of the older teens that's in high school; when we introduce ourselves in Japanese and our age, usually the teens say their in their Sophomore year and whatnot lol. Ehhhh guess my chance of meeting a new guy kinda...failed LOL.

So yeahhhh Japanese classes every Tuesdays and Thurdays. If you guys are gonna like hang out and stuff and have those fun nights, that's not cool because I won't be there T___T!! Okay just kidding..? ^^'' haha! Well, we had volleyball on Thursday and Friday last week. It was fun to gather the girls and guys team together again and have some scrimmage. I think we're going to have a volleyball clinic every week; maybe 1-2 times a week.

Okay I'm too lazy to write anything else because honestly, I was writing the things up there^ and I just came back to write THIS part after like 3 hours hahahaha! So byeee!